enjoy the silence?

Do you like my Depeche Mode inspired title? I'm listening to them right now, so it seemed the only thing to do. 


We spent the holidays here in Texas again. We always miss family, but we tried to have the best time we could. Jake was offered a position at a big company here called Cirrus Logic, so he started there in January and I was so happy to have him on a normal 8-5 schedule again! We moved just south of downtown Austin mid february... and we LOVE it down here! We are so close to downtown and live in the coolest little neighborhood right next to the greenbelt. 


We adopted a 1.5 yr old pup named Ruby. She's a beagador (lab/beagle mix) and is pretty darn cute. Bug is actually pretty interested in her.. which has been rather surprising and entertaining.


My last day at Nordstrom was on Sunday and I seriously could. not. be. happier about it!! It just got ridiculous after a while and I am happy to have my weekends back to focus more on photography again. Woot! 


So the most important thing that we have going on right now is that we have officially decided that we'd like to adopt a baby. We've prayed about this decision for months and we truly feel like this is the way we should start our family. We're actually very excited about it.. and have begun the process with LDS Family Services. I'd like to share a letter that I wrote a few days ago:

April  17, 2012

Our Dear Family and Friends,

  As many of you know, Jake and I have struggled with the issue of infertility for the past three years. We have gone through multiple fertility treatments, procedures, fertility drugs, loss, heartache, and even devastation at times. Through this, we have had the most amazing support from all of you. For this, we can not thank you enough. Really. Y'all are incredible.. 

  Over the past few months, Jake and I have been considering the alternative of adoption and have recently had the strong impression that this might be the way we are to build our family. We've both felt a sense of hope and comfort in the thought that there will be a baby out there that needs us. And we need them. 

  With this, we'd like to ask for your help. We're not quite sure how to do this... the whole adoption process is a bit overwhelming. We're starting the process with LDS Family Services and there will be interviews and paperwork and more interviews... hopefully they like us! In the meantime, we just wanted to get the word out that we are really hoping to adopt. Those who know us know that we're kind of weird, but we were wondering if you could maybe look past that if you ever knew of anyone with the intention of putting their unborn child up for adoption. We know it can be uncomfortable to talk about teenagers or twenty-something year olds that are in the situation where they're choosing whether to keep a baby or put it up for adoption. That is a personal situation and a very personal decision. Something we have seen first hand with friends and respect the difficult nature of. We are ready to start our family. We want to stay up all night with a newborn and be exhausted every second of every day. We want to deal with diapers, spit up, and boogers. We want to go camping and rock climbing and snipe hunting. We want to teach them wrong from right and instill in them what it means to be a happy human being. We want to be parents. 

  We'll leave you with that, but thank you for reading and please keep us in mind if you ever know of anyone struggling with the decision of finding a perfect home for their little one. We are sure to love that little baby for all eternity. Thank you, thank you for all of your continued love, support, and diligent prayers in our behalf. We are forever grateful for such amazing people in our lives. 

With Love and Best Wishes,

Lauren and Jake Casto

This has already been shared on Facebook and via email to our close friends and family. We really just want to share with the world our intention of adopting a baby, so that the child we are meant to care for and love for eternity will find it's way into our arms. 


I am really going to try to update this blog as much as possible as we'd like any potential mothers to learn more about us through reading this. I don't feel like I hold much back on here (which can make me a little nervous) and it's a pretty good way to have a window into our lives. As long as I'm on here keeping things current, I guess. 


It's a sunny day here in Austin, I'm smiling... and it feels really good. I hope you all have a lovely day.. whether it's raining outside or a perfect spring day, I hope you're smiling. 


Best, 
Lauren xo